in the end....

what is a life without love, without falling, without trusting

what is a life that we sit and get comfortable when the world tells us something is to wild, to crazy, to risky.
who are we that we hold back because we are scared of getting hurt, of losing out and in doing so, possibly letting slip the best thing, or the best time of our lives.

in wisdom we step out, in fear we sit down
Oh God who are we, that we dont believe, dont trust and fail you every single day.
that we dont talk to the drunk guy on the street corner.
that we sit on our couch complaining that we need a change.

Give us courage.
give us hope
give us hearts and feet to run against the grain.
with you by our side.

oh boy

So life has gone on and taken its toll. Ive made my mistakes, some bigger than others... But God sees and knows my heart right!

really... ive probably had the hardest week in a really long time, with being away from family, trying to keep or even find vision, watching as my mistakes catch up to me.... ive cried, been beyond frustrated and cried some more.
yeah.. im just a stupid kid sometimes!

in everything thats going on, God has proved himself solid once again!



But that doesn't make me come under attack any less! but it does make me fight against it harder.
Just like Job, in the end whatever happens.. My heart will still worship my father.

in the hard times there is still Joy, knowing that God is with me. and doesn't give me more than i can deal with. and he still has a plan and a purpose.

i choose to hold on to faith